Noel named

Not so

Eager to ride

Deeply deeply sad

Suicidal perhaps

Thinking you knew

What you wanted

But oh really

Just to talk and touch

A human

On that night

Especially

Cause cold is cold

And colder still

When you are not

Cherished

And I’m here to bet

You can’t breathe

Without that

Beautiful broken

Thing

I apologized because

I had nothing to lose

And because

I knew you wanted to hear it

Not because

I’m responsible for it

But because

I’m sorry you had to endure it

And that can be both sincere

And completely unfulfilling

All at the same time

So chew chew chew

Til ultimately you choose

To see me as a rich man’s shoe

New and nice and not nearly

As comfortable as the thought

Not nearly

As comfortable as the thought

You have such a gurgle when you speak

Yet you never clear your throat

And you have an odd power over people

A real presence a bigness a quality

Observable, deceiving, magnetic, inviting

I believe you only halfway know it

Coming and going people watch you

Eyes fixed so firmly we miss your words

People nod in agreement, lost, traveling

If you harness it, what an army

If you market, what an unstoppable dew

You’ll blanket the morning with winning

And you’ll leave the enemy frozen

You’re the new man

It’s not really about how you set the table

Not after your mouth got glued

The whole episode is shot at that point

Cause how you said it, deathed it

And no amount of pretty will revive

So don’t go to the trouble

Of tablecloths and candles

You done been seen as a fool

So how much more foolish will you be

Print the invitations?

Plan the whole affair?

Invite the kings and queens?

Or will you just admit there’s no air

It’s not really about how you set the table

Not now. You know that, don’t you?

Love keeps coming for me

I forget that it is the magnet of my soul

I daily fly wherever my mind leads

I have to be reminded of what I’m here for

I don’t mean to drift away

I’ve wasted a whole lot of time

Choosing to think of everything else

So no wonder I get distracted from right

So it really is unbelievable

I feel so undeserving

Of that pull you have on me

Turning my head

Fixing my eyes back on you

I don’t know if I’ll stand

I don’t know I don’t know

It’s so much easier to be oblivious

And I suppose I’m envious

Of those who get to sit faith out

Without guilt or obligation

It would be nice to be a disciple who Doesn’t have to do anything

Who’ll come around tomorrow

Or the next day

Holding a crowd

Seeing the nod

That is like

Making honey

Knowing my part

Just a part

Of all the world’s

Running pieces

For the Lord

To drink

A lengthy hope

That is arrogant

I know

But oh a lengthy hope

High-heeled march

Proud peacock swing

Arm in arm glee

Determined strut

Sure of who did not earn

A spot of celebrity

Yet you yourself

Ten unlifted fingers

But forgiven

Probably because

The quite possessive love

Is weirdly admirable

To a degree

At the end of it

I’m going to bet

Everything

The whole farm

That when the shoes

Were removed

You didn’t feel anything

High-heeled march

Proud peacock swing

Arm in arm glee

Determined strut

Sure of who did not earn

A spot of celebrity

Yet you yourself

Ten unlifted fingers

But forgiven

Probably because

The quite possessive love

Is weirdly admirable

To a degree

At the end of it

I’m going to bet

Everything

The whole farm

That when the shoes

Were removed

You didn’t feel anything

Rapidly boiling

Ocean floor

So extreme

Hatred pours

Deeper than

Deeper than

Anyone can see

I hear it when I’m alone

Public skinning

Shame painted

In my head

Scarlet obvious

Deeper than

Deeper than

Anyone can see

I hear it when I’m alone

Thunder scream

Fingers pointing

Automatic out

Universally hated

Deeper than

Deeper than

Anyone can see

I hear it when I’m alone

You look younger than you are

And you are both so sweet

Lonely helpful marginalized

Quite deep yet broken

Slobbery out of order

Yet potentially potential

I’m not sure you see more

In yourself than critical mass

But I do finally finally finally

I didn’t read wrong

I just couldn’t read you

All your tags read as tattered rags

And you read louder and sooner

Than anyone could

And I know I know my soot

But you’re a Forrest fire, aren’t you?

Quite big. And so so sad

What do you do all day

While I take so long

Figuring you out

I didn’t read you wrong

I just couldn’t read you